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This is a poison you put in your body
This is the lie you lay yourself to sleep with
This is the pain you never knew existed
This is everything you've ever wanted - and more than you'll ever know
(And everything you've always had)

So I'll continue to pen these words
And ignore he fact I'm always wrong, now and forever
And I've read the truth and I've prayed for more
But I'll slip and fall and die some more
Praying today won't be the day I end
And if this ends as I have chosen...

I've picked this story and read my lines
Unfortunately I didnt stay in the lines and have these scars to show
So if I make it out alive, forgive me now
Hate me later, and, please,
love me in the end

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The hate will still rise in our hearts
The pain will still boil from our innards
So cut me you must
And I'll miss with my point
And I'll slowly fade to dust
And slowly die to you
Begging to try again and start anew
But this chance to live
I took to the grave
And this chance to die
I held in til death do us part

Now

these sins I commit, against you and against Him
I'll continue to fall and continue to kill
And with each beating heart I stop
I know I'll never get the next chance
Chance for something that wasn't chance at all
Yet I beg for forgiveness and I beg for You
And fall short once again,
To this world and this sin
To never know true love
But the taste of poison that lines the harmless,
And the easy, all of this form
But I'll die for another taste
I'll die for both sides
And live for those days I see the light
Not to live in fright
But the need for You
And the thirst for more