Brandon marshall

I'd lay awake at night shaking like I was laying in the arctic
I'd never know right from wrong, and light from dark
There's one and that's for sure, died and rose, and that's on earth
But my belief is just that, mine and mine alone
Alone and left to understand a place, a place so broken and so misplaced
Days left trying are days left dying, and the trying days are fading to black
Someone once said that, and someones already said this.
But I can't not talk, and I can't not walk.
But I'll lie, or lay.
And tomorrow I'll know, what I never knew today.
But still it hurts, and it always will. Scars aren't scars forever until we look upon them with hope.
A neverending hope, and a neverending light.
But I always made my choice, even though my heart knew, but it isn't what we know, it's what we knew.
And im not who I was meant to be. But then again who will ever be.

It hurt

Where was I
          When I realized
I was never
           meant for this
And I was never
          meant for you
Inside I don't
          have a damn clue
And outside I couldn't
          dare to show
That maybe theres
          one fact
That I just don't
           plain know.

Buy I Try
          And I fail.
Tonights not
           the night
That I decide
           its about time
To turn my
          self the other way
But I pray
          tomorrow
Will be that day.
But I still know
         That I don't know.

I dont want to
          hurt them
And I don't wanna
           lose them
Im only trying,
           and maybe even dying
But they shouldn't
           how to take the fall.

Times are getting tough
This road is gettin rough

Id like to fail
Itd feel good to quit

But nows not the time
Never will there be a place

Yet I'd die for a breathe
And steal for a break
I'd kill for something more
And lie for anything better

In vain, I'd lay
In nothing, I'd hope
In noone, I'd know

And tomorrow would cease

And today would never be.

Dec 17, '10

I could sing you a song
I could write you a verse
I could write this rhyme(or not)
I could pen down these lines

But it'd never be enough
Because we are more than that
We are more than us
Because when it's real
We don't know it's real
We feel it's real
And my feelings for you
Are more than I know
And infinitely more than I know
So these lines mean nothing.
And our hearts together mean EVERYTHING.

So whether I write you a line, or a book
know that what I hold inside can never be broke
And I'll love you forever, with ring in hand, or in heart.
And if you trust me, you'll have it all,
EVERYTHING you've ever wanted.

Poison

This is a poison you put in your body
This is the lie you lay yourself to sleep with
This is the pain you never knew existed
This is everything you never wanted, and more than you'll ever know
- and everything you've always had

So I'll continue to pen these words
And ignore the fact Im always wrong, here and forever.
And I've read the truth and prayed for more
But I'll slip and fall and die some more
Praying this day won't be the day I end
And if this ends as I have chosen
I picked this story and read my lines
Unfortunately I didn't stay in the lines and have the scars to show
So if I make it out aline, forgive me now,
Hate me late, and please
Love me in the end.




God grant me the serenity
The serenity to not be this menace
A menace to myself, and a menace to society.